i have serious anxiety over the fact that everyone i know has an internship or something university related to do over the summer and i have nothing. the only reason why i couldn't go for an internship is because i had below a 3.0 gpa which most applications stated it needed to be higher and i have nothing going for me so i couldn't really apply for something cause i would look like shit in comparison. not to mention i can't even apply to study abroad, which tons of other kids are doing too, because again my gpa is too low. everyone has all these opportunities and knows what they're doing with their life and i'm left behind, completely confused and having no idea what i'm supposed to do.

i just had a conversation with a friend where she stated that she was going to study and take the mcats this summer and she asked me what i was doing and i said nothing, probably get a job. another kid popped in and said me too but then she responded but yeah, you're a freshmen! which is so fucking true, it's the end of my sophomore year and i have absolutely nothing going for me in a field that will get me nowhere. i feel so worthless and when i went to talk to an academic advisor about this, he didn't really help, he just said really vague shit that didn't help at all.

i just want to cry, i seriously don't know where my life is going and i'm so fucking jealous of people getting jobs and internships in their fucking field and being academically productive all throughout summer.