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this is probably really awful, but i tend to feel really resentful of other ppl with mi who have great support systems

like, no one really gives a shit about me and mine, my family just expects me to put up with it, and i feel guilted a lot of the time when i try to talk about it to people. and yet i see other people who have long term loving relationships, huge support networks, and it's just like wtf why can't i have that. and ppl always get really condescending about the relationship thing, like ~omg ppl will love you when you love urself~, as well as pretty much everything else as if everything will fall into place with a bit more therapy, but that's bullshit and i just keep failing at it. i'm fucking lonely and fucking tired.

aw biba. i am in the same boat sort of. my family (mom and sister) all suffer from mi, and so do i, but i've always been "the strong one" so its my job to take care of them, and if i try and talk about my mi they're like YOU'RE FINE bc they don't want to think about the fact that their support system is not as strong as it used to be.

so i know the jealousy feeling biba. i wish i had someone to take care of me.

WE CAN SUPPORT EACH OTHER OK.

aw biba that sucks, i'm sorry. yeah, it's a shitty situation, i legitimately had a friend when i was younger who would tell me that her problems were worse than mine so she wasn't going to listen to me talk about mine, and i got the same sort of attitude from some later friends so :/

also my gf just broke up with me bc she said she is not in a good place with her mi right now, she can't handle a relationship, and that's fine, but she's the one who's out drinking with friends now while i'm sitting at home alone again freaking out and i sort of just feel disgusting about this situation

aw biba i'm so sorry. :( you're brave though for having been in a relationship at all. i'm too scared to even try bc i don't know if i could handle losing something like that once i got it.

you will meet someone else tho. it just takes time, you know?

i know this feeling too well

sorry nona :c

i get what u mean nona, i don't think it's awful

i don't have much family and like no friends and i am terrified that my mi will just keep getting worse and worse. i get rly jelly of people who have partners and fronds and family who help them. i mean i'm glad for them igss but it just reminds me of everything i don't have. won't have.

me too and idk how much longer i can take it tbh :/

hope u all well bibas

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