I spent a year doing nothing with my gf telling her I was grey ace and just had such a complex sexuality omg it's so difficult to be me all while we were writing filthy rp for our shared fandom

then I realized helllll no and had to awk as fuckly tell her that I actually wanted her sexysexual romance.

then the first time we did it I got a nosebleed half way through

we've been together five years