ik this is dumb and life isnt a contest but some1 i follow ust got diagnosed w the same chronic illness as me and the outpouring of support from their followers financially and emotionally made me happy for them but also sad bc i had to go thru it all alone and still am dealing with it completely independently and i havent rly been able to get the best treatment bc of it.

i feel shitty for having that kind of reaction tho but idk honestly is that normal? its not like id say anything. is it immature to be jealous?