holy shit, just had an epiphany of how i can change my career. my current profression combined with some information technology training could be really useful. both state colleges here have online programs and since i already have a bachelor and a doctorate i just have to take the GRE to apply. i can go to school while i work, so money/ health insurance won't be an issue.
this is the most excited i've been about my future in a long while :D
i got a really long anonymous ask today from someone who wanted to talk about their gender feelings and i don’t directly answer anonymous questions on this tumblr but i sort of wanted to address it because i feel for the person a lot and their description of their experiences matched my own a few years ago. the big thing is that this post was not meant to be a joke. if you’re agonizing over wanting to be in a dyke relationship, looking at women with a mixture of subjective and objective desire (wanting/wanting to be), and feeling all fucked up about your gender: you. are. trans. it doesn’t matter if you don’t have strong feelings of aversion towards your junk, if you’ve only really noticed those feelings in the last few years, whatever. these are not things that cis dudes spend a lot of time thinking about. the problem is that for those of us who don’t have straightforward trans narratives, who didn’t know since we were little kids, it’s super easy to come up with a million reasons why we’re not “really” trans. and if you’re not ready to acknowledge that maybe you totally are, then there is nothing that i or any other trans person can do to convince you. so, anonymous asker: you’re trans, and it’s probably going to take a lot of work to get to a point of being able to seriously face that. i can’t give you a shortcut or explain it to you in a way that’s going to make it click. all i can suggest for now is that you find some trans women who share some of yr perspectives and desires and politics and spend time with them. not seeing myself in any of the images of trans womanhood i had available was probably a pretty big reason why i didn’t transition earlier, and changing that has been a crucial part of undoing some of the shitty ideas i’ve picked up living in a sexist, transphobic culture. i wish you the best and trust in yr power to chart a course that’s right for you.
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