I work as a psych nurse and its causing my mental state to get more and more fractured. Every day I go to work, genuinely try to help people but in the end were holding people against their will so I get verbally and physically abused almost daily. My dog keeps eating all my things, my room mates never clean up and I think my girlfriend loves me but don't think she respects me. I am extremely ambivilant towards my friends, I love them more then anything but they frustrate the crap out of me, I'm the only one that works full time, so they come over every weekend and drink and party and then bounce before clean up. I'm working 65 hour weeks so I can save money for a house deposit and I'm just so tired all the time and I start freaking out all the time when I have any time alone Which isn't that often. I feel like I'm trapped