But Tuesday actually meant more to me than I thought it would. He put me in a position to meet a lot of interesting people in the music scene that actually brought me to this city; something I kind of forgot in the last couple of years with how crazy life was. He introduced me to an amazingly talented singer/songwriter who's songs have really just hit a chord in me in a way few artists ever have. It made me remember the dreams and goals I had when I first moved here, and the reasons behind my being here, and a whole host of other things that I really have not thought on in a long time. It sounds cliche, but it was like some sort of re-awakening with me. I could go further on this subject, but am trying to be brief. Only two people in my life have had a major impact on me like this, and both have ended up being two of my very best friends (and had one not been 60 and married, the other about to be married, I probably would have pursued them like crazy).

Suffice to say, I'm reeling from Tuesday and the impact it's having on me, and the simple fact that this guy is the one who brought about that occurrence (and all the positive effects it's having on me as a result) has really given him a definite place in my mind. I'm not saying I'm in love or even want to date him at this point (I'm still struggling with commitaphobe issues after a five-year relationship ended earlier this year) - I'm not sure where my feelings are regarding him, except that I just really, really want to get to know him better. In my mind there is the potential for more, but I could just be reading into the things he says and does too much; I'd like the potential for more because there is a lot about him I really, really do like.

And I don't want to rush it. I've already had two relationships this year that were fun to get into but ended within a couple of months because I didn't click with the guy; one is still a friend, thankfully, the other doesn't care to keep in contact, which is fine. But looking back, there wasn't as much about those two guys I found as intriguing as this one.

And I have no idea how to say any of this to him without coming off as a weirdo. Part of me really, really wants to tell him all of this tonight, but I know that's probably way too much to tell someone I've only hung out with a handful of times. I've never told one of the friends mentioned above about the impact he had on me (I will get a chance this weekend though, when I go to visit him and his family) and I don't want to miss out on an opportunity to tell someone something that is this meaningful to me.

Any ideas how to proceed here? Or should I just keep it to myself for now and see how things go between us?