sometimes i wonder if it is this honestly. i've dealt with bad doctors before so i tend to believe them when they talk abt some ridiculous thing a dr told them, and recently they've been frustrated bc their latest doctor has been trying to set them up with a psychiatrist since he things some of their pain/symptoms might be psychosomatic.

at the time i went along with it like "yeah thats dumb no way" because the relative is actually my mom lql and i dont want to think that. i feel like ive seen her struggle with the problems my whole life and its so hard to believe that they might be made up. but she does fit so many of the signs. but then i feel guilty thinking that, like im ~betraying~ her or something.

sorry this is so long i just dk what to think or feel rly